Lately...

I've been debating in my head back and forth whether or not to post this on our blog. I've come to a conclusion: this is a huge part of our life right now and blogs are not meant to glorify and fictionalize reality into only smiles and laughs. Reality is happiness and sadness, smiles and frowns. This is reality.

Last month Sean and I experienced our second devastating miscarriage. We were thrilled to be expecting again and couldn't wait to share our happy news with everyone. I loved the idea of being a mother and Sean was excited too. As women, all our lives we're taught the importance of motherhood and how nourishing and raising a family is the most important work of all. I thought that after one miscarriage (last August) this would be our second chance. Things would work out and baby would be healthy and well.

Heavenly Father has a different plan for us right now. After hours in the emergency department and many tears later, we came home just the two of us. This has proven to be extremely difficult, frustrating, and sad and it is on my mind every moment of every day. I know that many others couples face similar trials and for you I am so sorry. Miscarriages are quite common but the pain is still very real.

Sean and I have faith that our loving Heavenly Father will make all things right and fair. We try to submit our will to Him and know that if we let Him guide us, we will not go wrong. When I hoped that my prayers would be answered with physical healing, they were instead answered with the strength and patience to bear the burdens placed upon me. He hears us. He loves us. "[He] will not leave you comfortless: [He] will come to you." (John 14:18)